Pants and I are going to see Machine Head on Friday at the Crazy Donkey! Woo hoo!

Me: Plus I'll be more than happy to pay for whatever what we do.
Mary: I would hate to make you do that. Do you like bowling?
Me: Yeah I do, I always like to please my friends, it's in my nature to make them happy.
Mary: I know. You're a great guy, that's why I can't just take from you.

This made me cry out of joy, she's the total opposite of what other people have been like to me, and we're gonna go bowling soon. I love her.

There was a time I was afraid
Of getting close to you
Your potency was quite threatening
Fiber pure, touching scars
Feels good to finally hold you

It was my mistake
For not trusting you
It was my mistake
Well this is now

I'm no longer afraid
I'm coming alive
And no one can take it away
I'm coming alive

Unbelievable force
When you're close to my lips
When feeling the intensity you give me
I adore you
And always will
Psychoactive and delicate

It was my mistake
For not trusting you
It was my mistake
Well this is now

I'm no longer afraid
I'm coming alive
And no one can take it away
I'm coming alive

You saved me from these nightmares
You took control of me
You saved me from this heartache
And never judged me

Been a few a days since I updated, so I'll bring you up to speed. I turned 20 on Tuesday, yay! I got an Xbox 360, with Halo 3, MK vs. DC Universe, Hellboy: The Science of Evil, and Grand Theft Auto IV(I actually bought it on Thursday, lol). I got my GT setup, TrentDoom. Add me if you want. I went to Dave and Busters with my mom, dad, sister, Aunt, Uncle, Great Aunt, and Brittany. Pants and Jesse also came as well as Tara and Tabitha. I was really really happy to see Pants, we haven't talked in awhile...I felt kind of bad about that, but we promised each other that we're going to hang out more often. After my family left Dave and Busters we all stayed to play the games which was really cool. Played Tekken 5, Donkey Kong, House of the Dead 4,Star Wars Episode 1 racer, and a few other games, Tara and Tabitha left around 10 since they had school and other stuff to do in the morning, afterwards Brittany, Jesse, Pants and I cliqued very well, and we were chilling outside Dave and Busters for about another hour. Brittany wanted to go home around 11:15 so we drove back to my house where her car was since we drove together. I kind of feel bad that I didn't get anything for Brittany's birthday which was about 5 days before mine and she got me a best of WrestleMania DVD, same thing Tabitha too, who got me a card. I told Tabitha that I'd make it up to her and we'd go out to lunch sometime, and Brittany didn't seem to mind it much. I think Brittany, Pants, and Jesse are gonna hang out a lot now since we all cliqued very well. I also had a few days off as well so I just kept up on my sleeping, lol. I really feel like sleeping right now, but oh well, that'd have to wait, I'm gonna go surprise Pants tonight at her show at Traxx. There's also a NYWC show in Port Jefferson on Route 112 tonight, but I'd rather go see Pants then go to a NYWC show. I'm going as a way to repay her for coming to Dave and Busters for my birthday.

I can't think of anything else to add. ha

May have found the one...gonna take it as slow as I can, but not too slow. I'm just not gonna do anything that I'll end up regretting later.

First off, I want to let people that I have no desire to talk to her.

xt0ofargonex (11:46:13 AM): hi, i know im not supposed to talk to you this is all im going to say you dont have to respond. i just want to let you know that I DO care about you, and i do care about your wellbeing, and everything that went down honestly did hurtme. love you. goodluckk in life

I really don't believe her. She knows what happened, but she didn't know what I went through in the hospital, all the months of the stress that she fucking caused me. She's just saying this so she thinks I'll forgive her. I heard she got herself clean, but I doubt that'll last long. The only reason she did everything she did was she saw that I had some money and figured it was her opportunity to talk me into giving anything to her. I guess she figures, when I don't have the money anymore, she'll stop talking to me and go on to someone to else and use them for their money.

We regret to inform all of our wonderful fans that after 13 years of doing business, IWA Mid-South will cease operations after the Kings of the Crimson Mask show on Friday night August 28th.

We simply do not have the money in order to continue doing business. It breaks our hearts that this day has finally come but we just can't hang on any longer.

If you have placed any ticket orders for TPI or the Double Death/Anniversary show, please print out a copy of your paypal receipt and mail it to the PO Box in Morris.

IWA Mid-South
PO Box 647
Morris, IL 60450

We do not have internet access anymore so please do not send emails as we do not know when we would be able to view them. The fastest way to get refunds would be to send the copy of the receipts from paypal to the PO Box so we can have them in hand to know who is owed what.

If you purchased TPI tickets and have the tickets in your possession, please send a picture of the tickets since we do not have records of who actually received their tickets.

Kings of the Crimson Mask in Bellevue will be our final show. Necro Butcher will not be on the show as we can not afford to bring him in for the event anymore.

The new main event for the final show will be Ian Rotten vs. Mad Man Pondo.

IWA is going to go out like they came in in a rematch from the first ever main event.

I would like to thank everyone that has worked for IWA in the past, all the fans that have supported the product and all the people that have helped out along the way with security, selling merchandise, concessions, etc.

It has been a tremendous ride these last 13 years and it is heartbreaking to see it all come to an end like this.

I would type up more but it is too painful at this time.

Thank you.

Ian, Patti, Mickie, Jim, John Calvin

http://www.gerweck.net/news/1251313242.shtml

RIP IWA Mid-South(1996-2009)
One of the greatest wrestling promotions ever...I wanted to wrestle for Ian Rotten so bad too.

So a few days ago I added this girl on Facebook. She went to Longwood, we haven't talked since we were in Middle School, and we had Social Studies together. I doubt she even remembers me, but we got along really great, when I was a lot younger I referred to her as my "Middle School sweetheart", granted I liked her...and for some reason I had a feeling she had a crush on me too. So I've been laying in bed thinking about some girls that I could possibly try and go out with(yeah, I'm a player, but not a jackass. XD) and she came up in my mind. I remembered how great we got along. I then fall asleep. Want to know what my dream was about? HER. It was hard for me to believe it too. We we're both in college, and was actually sharing a dorm room together. And we had no problems at all in the dorm...in my dream, of course. And then I woke up thinking, "damn...that's weird, in a great way." I wrote on her Facebook wall when I woke up again(I woke up, then fell asleep, then woke up again. lol). I didn't get anything back from her, at least not yet anyway. All that has been going through my mind since then was "Could she be it? Could she be the one?" We'll have to wait and see...

I was in Mather Hospital for the past 3 weeks. They saved me from committing suicide, and I was in the psychiatric unit for 6 days. I really don't want to explain exactly why I went to the hospital, but the people who know me enough know the story. Then over the weekend, I get sick with pancreatitis. Turns out I have to get my gallbladder removed. I was moved to the medical floor for two weeks. I haven't eaten for like 12 days, too. And because of that I lost about 20 pounds, and I'm on a low fat diet now. I loved all the people their, they treated me good. I was in a lot of stomach and back pain because of that. I liked the painkillers, they made me fall asleep, haha. After the pancreatitis went away, they moved me back to the psychiatric unit for 3 more days to finish up. They're Swedish meatballs is what got me sick in the first place. They also got me hooked with pool. I got released from the hospital on Friday.

I was really happy, especially because I was able to go to the FTW show on Saturday. I bought a Balls Mahoney t-shirt, and the Best of Raven DVD, The Best of Exploding Deathmatches...FMW matches, and the one TNA PPV that had Rhino, Abyss, and Samoa Joe in the Monster's Ball match. I can't remember which PPV it was. Anyway, it was a really good show, Balls Mahoney won the FTW title. Dan Barry is apparently from Japan, and Bellmore NY. Ha. Jay Lover vs. Lenn Oddity was sick and brutal yet again. Lenn Oddity looked like he may have broken a few ribs, but I'm not entirely sure.

I don't know if I still have a job at the Port Jefferson Ferry because of my hospitalization...they would try and get me some hours but I highly doubt I'm gonna get any...so I'll be out of a job...yet again. I can understand why, but then again they do like me, so I'll see what happens.

Another day, they make me fucking miserable. All they want me to do, is forget about everything. You want me to forget about everything and everyone, just because you supposedly heard something from someone else? Bull-fucking-shit. Unless you know what I'm going through, you shouldn't be saying shit. You made to the point of fucking committing suicide, so fuck you. When I had depression problems in the past, did you fucking do anything? No. So fuck you. I don't give a fuck about family anymore, I don't give a fuck about friends anymore, with the exception of a few. The only thing I give a fuck about is leaving my fucking house and never talking to you two pieces of shits again. I was held back way too long for this fucking shit. And you fucking messed it up. So fuck you.